burst

it's bursting outta me.

i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.
i miss you.

i talked whole morning to darren about that. quite depressing. anyway thank you darren.

if i could, then i would

i'll go wherever you will go

way up high or down low

i'll go wherever you will go

if i could turn back time

i'll go wherever you will go

if I could make you mine

i'll go wherever you will go

fook dnt workshop!

i woke up late for d and t today and rushed down. reached by 11+ and uncle tan was about to strangle me. i thought it would be simple but take hell lot of time. the blardie buffer makes the alumnium black instead of a shiny. i'm all done now, left with a little problem with the support that allows the spotlight to be mounted onto the wall. school ran out of material, how amazing eh? my dad pays tax regularly you know? lol. think i'm going school tomorrow. pray that i'll finish the final lap.

after d and t i went toa payoh to play basketball and i ran into nuppies before meeting dg. dg and me went to play first and nuppie joined in later. grr.. we kena dok (got thrashed) by the team there but they are club players so shoud have certain standard. if they couldn't thrash us we could just replace them in the club. anyway it's such a spoilsport. we formed a team with 2 outsiders and took on few of these tough and massy looking indos and was about to dok them. we scored a few and the club players invited us to leave the court cos their training was starting. after take i and dg had dinner and we went to get budget bubble tea and then sat down to talk. nice talk, i miss sec1 and sec2 days. but hello!? please get moving yit jing.

pride triggers trouble.
give up pride and peace is restored.

thankew uncle tan!

i woke up and studied awhile before leaving school to please my mum abit. it did. but it was really late by then, 10 plus in the morning and uncle tan will get mad thinking i'm lazy. so i cabbed down to school. there was no taxi stand at my area and i just stood by the roadside to flag for one. 4 people intercepted the taxis before me and i was getting really really pissed that i whacked the lampost. first was an old aunty, fine.. priority given to the aged. TO BE CONTINUED...
fooking pissed. mum is lecturing me again.

okay i'm back. next was a mum with a baby, i excuse. next was a lame, i excuse again. last was the one that pissed me off, a punkily dressed kid. hello?! i'm doing serious business and you were just out there to play. do you need to make it so obvious that you were intercepting MY cab? i finished most of the parts of my d and t artifact and it was quite tough. now left with the switch/battery box which should be much simpler compared to the artifact itself. phew.

i took a bus to potong pasir mrt station and stoned at the stairs for quite some time. along came a jovial looking indian man. he was walking towards the toilet and he gave me such a warm smile. i was puzzled. was he just another too-friendly uncle or did i meet him before somewhere else? after he visited the loo, he came back and this time he gave me a wider smile and stopped in front of me. a conversation went on...

"hello young man, the back of your shirt says 'once a saint... always a saint...'." (that's what printed behind my shirt)
"hiiii yep.. that's my school-based shirt."
"oh i see.. young man are you lonely or troubled?"
"nope, i'm just waiting for friends over here." (i just lied out of the blue, don't ask me why)
"your girlfriend?"
"nope, my bunch of buddies."
"young man you had your lunch? no?"
"yea no.. i only had a snack."
"i see i see. i read from your face that you are troubled and hungry. and you are actually not waiting for anyone but a solution for everything.. hohohoho.. relax saint." (he walks away slowly still bearing that smiley face)

i was stunned for a moment. this man seemed like some some holy divine man. somehow he made me feel better although not much. he could even tell what's going on in me.

i went douby gaud station arcade to do some lone arcading and vented everything on soul calibur (3-D fighting game). soon imeldie came to pass me the cookies she baked and we walked towards orchard station. the food u baked is very nice! i couldn't name it and classified it as 'food' cos i dunno whether its a muffin or cookie! hahahahahhaha.. lamo...

i jus quarreled with my mum AGAIN... she buay sian i'll sian one okay... she's scolding me again, saying that people spending so much time on d and t doesn't exist. she said im wasting my time and she said d and t A1 so what? you flop others still same same. hello?! first, i'm telling you i'm NOT wasting my time and i'm really busy with my artifact. next is, at least i get an A for d and t. that's better than flopping everything. you said i'm not doing my work and studying. i know since secondary one i haven't been a good boy but now i'm trying to change day by day. i did comprehension and practiced maths today. why do you have to demoralize me in this way? saying i'll fail my entire prelims badly and that i'll flop my 'o' levels? its like i'm climbing up the rungs of a ladder and every step i take, you saw off sections of the ladder below, making me stagnant...

i hope tomorrow will be a better day and i can finish up the little switch/battery box and hand up the artifact. and what's more, my bloody folio.. have to stay up every night to rush to hand up. guess this is the longest entry i ever blogged. sorry for venting on it.

*peace*

Quarrel

i just quarrelled with mum AGAIN. she compared me, said all those 'o' level students are doing stacks and stacks of exam papers at fastfood outlets and i'm doing nothing at all and being very relaxed. WTF!! i'm not being rude or wadeva fuck if you think i am but i really am busy. d and t is really really draining me and past week and today i've been working on it, searching for stuffs and troubleshooting. if u call this idling, i suggest you can let me quit school now. you said im wasting time doing d and t so why you send me to school for? you say i'm lazy cos i can't wake up on time but im really tired and i have stuffs to do. i dun think you'll understand and after all these big-talking down here, i'll still try to go by you, making you think you are always correct and i'm wrong big time.

*peace out and chill*

Same old shit

same old boring shit again. d and t..d and t and still d and t.. screw it! but after all, some progress made and its almost done. i shaped the screwthread knob thing and i fooked it up at the parting off process. that little thing flew off the lathe machine and struck the wall splitting into two. felt like smashing the whole damn thing but i have to be patient and strong. finally and successfully made one at last.

to the electrical shop aunty: if you don't know what the heck you are selling, kindly invest in a different trade. your every word for instance 'i think so' or 'maybe can' may cost lives.

after workshop session, i went over to chia's. i watch him play guitar and i just monkey-ed around with the drumsticks making pure noise. he thought me bar chords that are so cool. he showed me fast solos that my eyes can't even catch up with his fingers. what i can say about him is talent and passion made him a pro guitarist. we went a nearby kopitiam for lunch and was back soon again. brian's jamming studio is great! so cosy and when the lights are out it's pitch dark. he played a tune in the dark which impressed me and we played a fool by tuning the amplifier to some eerie sound. we discussed how it'll freak the daylights outta ben and boyu if they happen to come. i got hangover soon and was groggy. quite surprising, i guess it was from the alcohol i drank last night. the hangover was so delayed. we fell asleep and woke only 6+pm. brian's other friends had came and we jammed. he taught me skateboarding and it was fun! going home was a long long long journey and i switched four buses from choa chu kang to punggol. there are other shorter alternatives but i'm just too dumb to figure out at that moment. i wanna make my room like brian's jamming studio!

*peace out*