im stupid, my mouth is dumb, say wrong things, make her angry.

sincere apologies. really didn't mean it.

sorry.

yesterday was an eye opener for me. i went to watch nike fearless 5 basketball at taka with loong. weilong is my hero man. his passes are godly. and the eye opener for me happened when the time was down to almost zero seconds. weilong windmilled the ball in. perfect hangtime.

i met darren, kaiyu and winsur after that. we played truth and dare. everything came out, be it relationship stuffs, sick stuffs. dare was quite fun. loong bastard me. make me ask for girl's number but i asked for time instead. shhhhh. the other one was calling a girl to say 'i love you', simple as a b c. kaiyu was made to ask where's esplanade at esplanade. LOL.

holidays is bored. keep going out oso bored. i prefer sneaking out while exams are still on. so weird right? hahaha. i told my mum and she said life's like that. see, men dun go for prostitutes when they are single. only after when they are married, they do that. the human mind works so complicatedly.

remembered this funny thing. yesterday i was at dhoby gaut station's zone-x arcade watching people play soul calibre. this guy was crazy, totally into the game. he lost like 10 tokens to the opposite guy and was still trying. when others in the queue tried to tap to be next, he'll ask them to scram. he bangs the console everytime he loses the round (yea, he kept banging you know what i mean). he's a damn sore loser, he swears and look over to flash his foul middle finger when he loses. i guess partially, it was my fault. cos i can't help laughing and smiling looking at his expression. if he tried that hard academically, he'll be an asean scholar.

. eight letters . three words . two persons . one meaning .

now, O's are over. i feel, bored. like there's nothing much to do. ironic eh? but good thing, i can slack and sleep late. i'm looking for a job. i applied for singtel roadshow and hope they'll take me. or maybe, i'll go do some volunteer job. i'll starting planning my holiday to make sure i won't be bored.

last night was graduation dinner. i sat with 4 other classmates and 6 other seniors from 5N. luckily there was leonard the joker at our table. he's full of his own shit, telling jokes and playing open number within the table. the loser eats the pickles after everyone finishes the dish. i was so lucky and become the winner of open number. awarded with all those lemon slices with skin, urgh, damn sour. good job matthew, you suaned desmond soh on stage, i take off my hat to you. overall it was a solid night although the course dinner was extremely budget. everything good comes to an end, we sang the school song and it was time to go. took loads of photos and some crazy classmate even posed a blowjob shot. you guys will cry if the picture goes to the press. hah, don't say i didn't warn you all.

after that i headed town with kenneth, eugene, max, man hon and gabriel. it was quite sad that eugene had to leave early. hope his mum will soon give him more freedom. it was freaking funny at far east. eugene saw this man digging in the bin (probably for drink cans) and he thought he was one of us. he scream "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" and that man jumped and nearly fell into the bin. LOL, it was very malu. luckily the man didn't punch him.

we played pool and k-pool and after that walk about till morning where we ended at lau pa sat. we had breakfast and headed home. i greeted my dad good morning when i ended my house! nice solid sleep from 8am to 6pm.

accounts paper was a potential 9. now it came true.

i celebrated the end of third last paper by eating at marche with magesh. went the esplanade library to read magazines and nearly doze off at the cosy couch.

(one starry night, looking up to the sky)

see these stars?
it never leaves you.
it's a symbol of my care.
a promise that i'll never forget you.

sweet. ain't it? alright, off to bomb my next paper.

i guess for now, i'll cling on.
i don't mind falling off again.

hari raya pussa to all my mat friends!

i found jalan berseh's traditional laksa today! rocks totally and mentioning it now makes my stomach growl. whole afternoon was wasted sleeping.

i went slacking with BY and ended up playing at the swing at rivervale crescent. it was super thrilling cos BY helped pushed me and the sit was so small that i was struggling to stay on it. cheap thrill yea?

we walked to punggol park to look for bigger swings although it was 11 plus. it was the first time i explored that place and it was not bad. quite well lit and there's a cafe which was packed even at that time. we walked on a chanced upon this man lying on the track. a fainted jogger. one ah pek told us his friend went out and called for ambulance. i checked him for breathing and fortunately he was still breathing. then, he showed signs of fits. tough one holding his jaws apart to keep him from biting his tongue real hard. thanks to singapore's healthcare system the SCDF people arrived briskly.

okay, so my job is done. time to go home. hope he's fine alrite. God bless you, jogger.

i attempted the tys for combined chemistry and physics mcq and realized i can't really do the chemistry mcqs? damned. nevermind, at least today's studying out is quite productive but as usual alot of non-academic discussions. i saw this funny nigga at cityhall citylink. his hair looked like wool. twenty-second, that's nine days. nine days to end of exams. i'm feeling quite sad and irritated to hear that that guy dissappeared from her. grr.

we don't know how to treasure someone who is there physically.
and yet treasure the one whom abandon us.

O's are crap. some papers gave me a feeling i'm gonna retake them again next year but screw it anyway. fark it. hearing people discussing answers is bad. hearing people discussing different answers is worse. hearing people discussing different answers and your not matching any of them sucks. but screw it anyway.

so now is the 8 or 9 days break in between the papers. fortunately, the rest of the paper aint that bad. yesterday was so slack. i met darren after the papers and we played basketball? lol. dun be surprised, too bad that we are slackers. anyway his mum said i'm a very polite boy judging from the way i communicate on phone. okay, laugh about it now.

enough of laughing?

okay continue. we went up to his house after playing bball and he let me sniff his johny walker and a sip of jim beam. lol. nicee but i'm no alcoholic okay. we went town after that and ate 2 mos burgers followed by the beijing dim sum restuarant where we each had ten xiao long bao. that's heaven. darren is a joker, he burst the perfumed towel's packaging with a loud pop to draw attention and ask the waiter for a refill.

to imelda: xiao long bao at paragon rocks! hope you can read this now. muahahahhaa.

i've a wish for christmas.
that is there'll be no more sadness in the the world.
UNREALISTIC eh?

sunk into damnation. someone pull me up damn it.